Surpirse by size....

Yesterday I was feeling down in the dumps and I did not make healthy eating choices.  I was feeling sad and depressed, not motivated to do much of anything even though it was actually beautiful outside.  Well, this morning when I woke up, I had kind of the same sad, mopey feeling so I laid around for a little while and still feeling guilty for the food choices from yesterday.  I decided I needed to cheer myself up so I walked downtown and jumped a max to go to the mall so I could go buy some jeans from Old Navy, they were having a sale.  I walked in the mall and started going towards Old Navy when this store called DEB caught my eye.  I went in and they all sizes so I looked around and grabbed a few pairs of pants size 20 and one size 18 just to see.  I got in the dressing room and the 20's were too big, YAY!!!  Then I tried on the 18 and they were a comfy fit.  I decided to try a 16 on just for shits and giggles.  Well the damn things fit, now this style was a little too tight for my taste so I put them all back and started for Old Navy again.  Then Lane Bryant caught my eye.  I went and there and talked with one of the very knowledgeable associates and she helped me find jeans, shirts, and bras to try on.  Well, I found this really beautiful blue button down shirt that I just loved.  Then I was trying on all these jeans and I found my size.  I am super happy to report I am now in a size 16 average jeans!!!  They fit AMAZINGLY nice.



This was at the store!

  I love the dark wash, but the pair they had in dark wash was too short.  I ended up going out to another Lane Bryant to get a lighter color.  I hope that maybe I can order a dark pair but you know even the lighter pair looks damn good.  I ended up spoiling myself and I bought a brand new pair of jeans, 2 shirts, 2 bras, and 2 camis. 



Size 16 jeans Go Me!!!

 I got a purple button down like the one in the above picture.  I got a black one also like the one in the below picture.  I have not wanted to spend a lot of money on buying new clothes because I want to keep losing, but my thinking is, if I have clothes that actually fit and I am feeling good about myself then I should be able to snap myself out of this rut and get back on track with losing more weight.

 Everyday is struggle and it is just getting harder the more weight I still need to lose.  I will do it though. I am looking at this purchase today as an investment to losing more weight because as I am losing I will notice these clothes, that fit just right (they show my nice curvy body)



I have to show my booty!!!

  getting looser and that will be awesome.  Plus, I was able to wear my "big" clothes for quite awhile.  One more little bonus is that Tim (one of my roommates) said to me when I was telling how excited I was about buying clothes smaller than what I was use too, he said he could tell I have lost some weight and that I look good.  That is just being here in Portland!  YAY GO ME!! 

Clothes....

The other day I was walking around town and thought maybe I should try on some new clothes.  I haven't purchased "new" clothes since I started losing all this weight.  Now, it could go one of two ways: 1: get really happy because maybe I went down another size since last time I tried on clothes or the worst side, the side I don't want 2: Get really depressed because, since I have been gaining some weight since being in Portland I may have maintain the same size or went back up.  Knowing these are all options that could be, I stayed positive and went out anyway and tried on some clothes.  The last time I purchased a new shirt was in September.  My posting "buying a shirt" posted September 26, 2010.  That was for orientation at Fred Meyer in Alaska.  I didn't try on pants that day, but I will have you know I have that shirt still and now it is too big for me.  It "hangs" on me and I just don't really wear it anymore. 
I went into Ross, they were having a clearance sale and I am on a very tight budget.  I look through the clothes and found one pair of jeans and one shirt that I actually liked.  The shirt was a XL which is most cases equals to a size 18 and the jeans was a size 20.  I looked at the 18's but could not even find a pair I liked.  So I only tried these on and to my surprise, I thought they fit well.  The jeans were loose so I am hoping that next time I will find an 18 and they maybe loose.  I stood in front of the mirror for awhile, thinking to myself, WOW I have come a long way.  It would a shame to not keep going at this point.  I have lost (as of last WW weigh in) 62 LBS!!  I was only 28 LBS from one of my main goals.  I am trying to get it back together.  Standing there seeing how I looked in that outfit, opened my eyes, YES I CAN DO THIS, YES I WILL DO THIS!!!  This is the outfit that I thought looked pretty good...

I talked myself out of buying this outfit.  For a few reasons actually.  1: the entire outfit was roughly $28.00, I didn't need to spend that much on clothes 2: I don't want to buy another pair of pants in the 20's, I WANT to wait until I hit the teens again.  I don't go out too often, but when I do, it would be nice to have clothes that actually fit and that I feel amazing in.  I am off work this weekend so I may check out some thrift stores, but we will see.