Smashing IT!!

I have been seeing Sarah about 3 times a week and each day she pushes me little harder.  My body is sore but I know what I am doing is working.  She is showing me the correct way, or more beneficial way to workout and get results.  I am only weighing in with Sarah one day a week!  This week it will be Thursday.  I am really hoping for a good solid loss.  I feel like I did really good this week and I just hope the scale reflects that.  I know it is not all about the number on the scale but it sure does help when that number goes DOWN! 

  
 The other day we had a session and my butt cheeks hurt so bad the next day.  I was seriously walking around holding on to my butt.  However I did like the fact that my jiggle bum was feeling the burn.  Today was serious.  We did a smash up today.  This circuit included: steps with weights for 2 mins per leg, squats with weights, a side lunge thingy with weights, the row machine (400 meters in uner 2 minutes), press machine, and ending with squats while passing a weighted ball for 2 minutes.  One round of all this was one circuit.  We did this (I think it was) 3 times.  Than we followed up with sets of crunches and leg lifts. Finally the stretching came!  I was sweating like a CRAZY today.  I asked her if it was normal to sweat as much as I was and luckily it is!  Sweating helps get the toxins out which is AWESOME! 
   

Looking back...

Sometimes I feel it is important to look back, not for too long, but to look back to where u came from or this case where I started.  When I started this blog I was at my heaviest and hardest time with my weight.  I was literally tipping the scales at 289 LBS.

This picture was taken shortly after I arrived in Alaska, where this journey began..

And now here I am, January 4th 2013

 That is so crazy to me to think I let myself get to that point.  Here I am today still blogging about the hardships and the happy times of this journey.  I went to my 3rd session with Sarah and we checked my weight again.  I am happy to report another kilo (2.2 LBS) down which brings to me 209 LBS (95 kg).  Here is the time I have to look back and say what the hell?  I have lost 80 lbs (36.3 kg) since I started.  WOW!  80 LBS that is literally another person, small person but still a person.  My drive is only getting stronger now.  20 more pounds I will have lost 100 LBS!  I am very much looking forward to that day I step on the scale and I realize I had lost 100 frickin' pounds.  I know it is still going to be hard and I am going to have to work like hell to get there but I KNOW I can do it!  People keeping asking me what my goal weight is, but honestly I don't know. Just throwing a number out there and hoping that, that amount weight looks good on you or saying at such and such weight I will be healthy is very unrealistic to me.  However I am a person who needs to know what I am going for (well as far as this instance anyway).  So I am going to say somewhere between 165 lbs. and 175 lbs.  I am sure these numbers will change as I get closer but just a point of reference to where I am heading. 

Personal Trainer session 2...

I had my second visit with Sarah today.  We started off with taking some photos to be my "before" photos.  I was in my workout pants and a sports bra.  We took the pictures in the bathroom at the gym.  I am currently debating if I want to post these pictures.  It is important to lay it all out there and maybe if I do post them it will help encourage me to keep going.  However nudity is not a problem with me.  For those of you who actually know me know I am very comfortable naked :) OK, so it has been about a week since I wrote this post and was unable to publish it.  During this time I decided I was going to post some of my "before" pictures we took at the gym. 

Anyway on with the training time.  She had me doing more lunges and this time my legs were shaky and felt like jello.  When I told Sarah that she said that is normal and that is what you want to feel.  So go me, at least I was doing them right! She worked my legs a lot today actually.  Then we went over to this one machine that works your back and I felt pretty good on that one.  We stood back to back and passed a ball weighing between 3-5 kg back and forth to each other and then back to the machine.  We did a circuit a few times.  Lets just say I was really sweating and feeling it today.   My next session is on Monday at 1PM, I am very much looking forward to it!

POSTS

I have 2 posts waiting to be published.  For some reason I can not upload pictures again today or yesterday.  As soon as I can upload the pictures I will publish these posts.  Until then I will keep writing them as the news keeps happening.  Hope you stick with me..

Personal trainer

Today I had my first visit with my personal trainer, Sarah.

 She took my weight which is 96.1 kg (211.8 lbs) I was actually very happy about that even though the loss I have experienced has not been healthy.  It is due to working way too many hours, not eating and it being so damn hot and I work in a kitchen, I am sweating my weight away.  She also took measurements of my thighs, chest, hips and stomach.  I don't really know all these numbers right now.  I roughly looked at the sheet as she was filling it out but sadly I didn't note it myself.  I will find out and post them when I can.  This way we can track my loss all the way around.  I am super excited about that because I know the number on the scale is not everything.  What was really embarrassing was when she tried to take my blood pressure (Normally my BP is great) but the cuff barely fit on my flabby arm and we could not get a good reading.  What a slap in the face huh?  We are going to try again in a few weeks.  Hopefully my arms will start to get toned enough for the cuff to fit.  After all that she had me doing some lunges, push-ups, planks, and messed around with the big ball.  She also had me on the roe machine.  I have to say I actually really like the roe machine.  I did 407 meters (roughly a quarter of a mile) in 2 minutes.  Originally she said lets do 300 meters in 2 minutes and I smashed the 300 way early so she said go to 350 and I smashed that and then she changed it to 400 all in the same 2 minutes.  I nailed it!  Go ME! I think I will be using that machine a lot more when I go on my own.  I feel like I did the lunges ok until she gave a 5 kg (11 lbs) disk to hold above my head doing lunges and she was pushing me, I had to hold my balance and not drop the weight.  I didn't drop the weight but I did struggle a bit with the balance part when she was pushing me around.  My next training with her is on Thursday at noon.  I am looking forward to the next visit because she said next time she is going to push me harder.  On another positive side she said I actually surprised her with some of the assessment.  Since I have never had a trainer before.  We have a lot of work to do on my core.  I guess I didnt' stick with yoga enough in Portland hahaha!  Today was a good workout day for me and it really opened my eyes.  I am more ready now than I have ever been.  It is happening my friends I am finally going to be a smaller version of my self and a healthier one at that! 

Here we go...

     It is starting, I finally got my key card fully activated for the gym.

 Today I bought a workout outfit

 and before Christmas I bought new kicks for working out.  I got to talk to the gym manager, she is the one that helped me back in October.  She is bad ass and she said she is going to KICK my ASS!

Michelle (the gym manager) and me!

 Yes please, I am in NEED of a good ass kickin'.  I haven't seen her since October when I joined originally and she said she could tell I have lost some weight since then.  GO me!!  I got a personal trainer too.  I start with her tomorrow at 11 am.  She said she was really going to kick my ass.  She is a results driven person and she wants results!  I think I am in for  it for real!  This is the year for change!  I am changing all over the place.  Tomorrow we will start with a physical, checking my current weight, getting measurements and all that jazz.  This way we can really track my progress.  I am super excited and I can't wait to start losing weight and toning my body.  Her goal is to turn my body into a fat burning machine, even when I am sleeping!  My response to that is YES PLEASE!  I believe 100% this time I will achieve my goals! 

Over a year....WHAT!!

      I can not believe I have neglected this blog for over a year!  I guess life and priorities get in the way.  Tonight I got on blogger to check my sisters blog and after reading her updates I switched over to my blogs and realized that I had not updated either one a very long time, but this one I really let go.  I know there has got to be an underlining reason like, I have really gotten off track and let my weight take over my life again and I was just down right ashamed that, in the going on 2.5 years with this blog that I could not meet a goal.  A goal that I had such a drive for. What happened?  Why could I not do it?  Why was this something that I failed at? 

This picture was taken a few days before I left Portland, Me and Mitchell at my going away party.

     The time has come, things WILL be different, things WILL change! I knew this would be an on going life battle for me.  I moved from Portland, OR to Sydney, Australia, graduated from culinary school

Last day of class, about to head to our externships

The day I arrived in Sydney Australia!

and now I am working as a "pastry chef".  Life is still busy.  Stuff is still going on to cause excuses, but excuses no more.  I am taking control once again and I will reach my goals this time.  I have a lot of driving force this go around.  First and foremost I want to be HEALTHY, secondly my grandma Koehn is turning 90 in September and wants to skydive.  I so badly want to jump out of a plane with her.  Now this is where my cheap side kicks in, if your over 200 lbs you have to pay more to jump.  Thirdly I bought myself a Christmas present this year, since I was alone for Christmas, I bought a 3 day Scuba Diving voucher to learn to scuba dive and become a certified diver up to 18 meters ( which is about 59 feet).  Fourthly I want to travel the world and bigger clothes weigh more which in turn makes my suit case heavier which equals more money for luggage and/or more bags (again with the cheap side kicking in).  I have many reasons this time and yes some sadly are probably superficial.
     Back in October I joined a gym here in Sydney.

  Well, the job I had the hours picked up so much I only went the first 3 days.  I was working 80 plus hours every week and getting really drained and unable to make it to the gym.  Since then I have switched jobs working less in hopes of getting to the gym at least 4 times a week.  Working as a Chef and being friends with Chefs I have found that drinking is very common after work.  We all were going out almost every night to have a beer, but it was never just one or two beers, it was beer and tequila for a few hours after working 14-15 hour day.

 Months of this behavior I realized something had to change, I did not want that to be my life.  Like most people I knew I could not make that change during the holidays so I of course I waited to after the first of the year.  However about 2 weeks ago I started going to back to the gym and when I joined the first time I checked my weight and I was 114kg (which is about 251 lbs).  If you have been following this blog you know I started this journey at 289 lbs.  I lost a crap ton of weight and then put a lot of it back on while in Portland.  So when I went back I checked my weight again and I weighed 98.7 kg (about 217 lbs).  HELLO!!  Do you see what that means? Since being in Australia I lost  15.3 kg ( 34 lbs!)!!  WHAT WHAT!!  That was the extra push I needed.  My original goal was to get to at least 199 lbs and now my friends that goal is only 18 lbs away! I plan to lose more than that but what was once my long term goal has now become my short term goal. What feeling!
This next picture is the most recent picture taken today...

Here I go, ready to take on my challenges and achieve my goals...hopefully you will follow me.

Sassy Saturday

Today is the start of my 5th week back with Weight Watchers and what a great start it is!  When I weighed in this morning I was down 3 LBS!!  That's right, you read that correctly I lost 3 damn pounds this week!  Oh hot damn!  You know the movie, How Stella Got Her Grove Back, well (prepare for corny haha) this is How April Got Her Weight Loss Back!  Holla!  I am so excited! Like, every week I am nervous going in and getting on that scale.  I feel like I could have done better or I think back about the food I ate and made myself believe that I did not do so well.  Apparently I am doing well.  I want to reach my goals so bad!  I can taste them.  First big goal I am still trying to reach and I will do it! To get to less than 200 Lbs.  Every week I am getting a little bit closer!  Right now as of today I only have 30.2 Lbs to make it to 199! I can not wait!  That is going to be an amazing day!  For now I am going to keep on trekking.

Saturday's Weigh In

So Saturday went really well.  This past week I had lost 2.6 lbs!  Heck yeah!  Since we have been making bread and will continue to make bread I decided instead of taking it all home , where I will eat it whether I am hungry or not.  I am stopping by my work on the way home and dropping it off for my coworkers.  :)  It is a win win.  They get fresh warm bread and I get to get rid of it without wasting it.  YAY!  What is really cool is that I am giving bread to the Executive Chef and the Sous Chef at the hotel.  Yeah, trying to get them to love my baking skills, so far so good.
Also, I have added a great workout to my schedule.  It is not much yet but I love it.  Every Thursday I  do Yoga at this awesome Yoga studio downtown.

  I go at noon which works out perfectly because I get out of school at 10:35 AM.  I walk down to the square, study or work on homework, then I go do Yoga for an hour.  You know how many activity points I earn for 60 mins of Yoga? 5 yeah that is right 5 extra points towards food I can eat, yum!  After Yoga I catch the Max and head home to sleep before work that night.
Small baby steps again and I will get there, eventually.

The Breakdown

I had finally hit it, the dreaded breakdown where I just threw a temper tantrum and just accepted the fact that I was just going to fat the rest of my life.  The beginning of September I was struggling mentally, emotionally, and physically.  I was eating whatever was insight and if it wasn't insight I went to the store and got "it" whatever "it" was at the time.  I kept saying to myself I am just going to eat this and then I do better tomorrow.  Well, the Tomorrow I kept saying never came.  My weight has been bouncing up and and some downs, but being honest mostly up since I moved to Portland.  I thought I could do it alone, I thought since I had been so successful that clearly I knew how to do this and what to do.  Obviously not!  I bounced with 15 lbs back and forth, then the last few weeks I notice there is was no more bounce just a steady gain; 1 lb here, 2 lbs there.  I thought it is ok, a few stressful things started happening and I just blamed it on that.  Around the second week of September I started looking back into weight watchers.  That is what worked for me and clearly I needed to pay money to sit with strangers and just listen for me to lose weight.  I am still not really sure why that is but most of the women and the few men in there are roughly 6-20 years my senior.  Sometimes I feel like I am the only late 20's, early 30 's struggling with my weight and willing to go to weight watchers.  Which is fine, I can do this, I did it in Alaska so why am I struggling here in Portland? 

After weight in on 10/1/11

    
On September 10, 2011 I RE-JOINED weight watchers.  I am sucking up my cheap side and spending the damn money to sit with strangers and listen to their stories.  When I weighed in on that first day I was sadden to see how high my number had gotten again. I was tipping the scales once again at 235.4.....:(  then the next week 9/17/11 I had lost .4, 9/24/11 I had gained 2 lbs ( I blamed my finals week on this gain.  I was stressing losing my A in one of my classes) and to get us up to date I weighed in last Saturday 10/1/11 and I had lost 2.2 lbs.  Weight Watchers has changed a few things and now I think it is for the better.  First when you go in no more pulling your card and them writing down your weight.  Now you have a bar code and they scan you into the meeting then you go over to the scales and they scan you again, you get on the scale and the computer does the rest.  The best part is it automatically sends it to your tracker if you use the etools.  Plus the app they have is badass.  You can set alerts to send you messages about the time you eat to remind you to track and then it takes you right to the tracker.  I have tracked way more now that it is on my phone.  With my schedule all hectic I forget to write down what I eat so this is so much better.  I am loving it! 
My weigh in days are Saturdays because there is a location about .5 of a mile from my job and I usually work Friday nights so when I get off in the morning I can just walk over there.  My meetings are at 730 AM and I get off at 6:15 so it works out pretty well.  I am going to attempt to update this blog after weigh ins on Saturdays from here on out!  It is time for a change in my life, time for me to finally reach my goals, I am done with putting my weight loss in the back seat and thinking everything else is more important.  So here I go again, starting on this journey once again, only this time I will achieve my goals. 

Tough start

My first week of "getting back on track" did not happen.  I missed weigh in on Thursday 28th because I woke up late and was very late for work, more on that day in my other blog.  So I thought to myself it's OK I will just weigh in next week and maybe I will see a more of a loss.  Well, the 4th came and went.  Wow I need to get it together.  By Sunday Aug. 7th I said screw it and weighed in anyway.  I am still shooting for Thursdays.  On Sunday the 7th I was down by 1.8 LBS.  Slow start but I was happy with it. Then by that following Thursday (8/11/11) I weighed in again, sad to say I went up by .6 LBS.  BOO!  I will try harder this week. 

I have started eating some "new" foods, for me anyway.  For breakfast the past week I have been eating oatmeal with mixed nuts and a banana!  I am trying to eat more healthier meals throughout the day.  With my schedule that doesn't always happen.  I am still not getting enough food and therefore my weigh loss is all over the place.  I think I am going to try to plan my meals for a while and see if that helps.  With me always on the go, I may even try to pre-make some meals to grab and go.  Here lately I have been eating microwave WW meals while walking to the max to go to work.  That is not good.  I need to reevaluate my time.  I will get it, I just have to work a little harder.

Its been too long....

     There are always excuses to make when it comes to losing weight.  I should know, my whole life I always made excuses on why I was gaining weight or why I wasn't losing, and the big one WHY I CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT!!  Everyone does it, it is just about accepting it and learning from it.  I find myself still making some of those excuses.  Oh work schedule, school schedule, just too tired, feeling lazy today, ect...  I do have a busy schedule and I don't have a lot of time for sleep most days, but still I should make time to reach my goals.  Being over weight SUCKS!!!!  Not to mention the "health" risks associated with being over weight.  It has been way too long since I have posted on this blog.  I have changed my mind set once again.  I have placed new goals  and new dates that I would like to reach these goals.  I dont' like to use the word deadline when referring to weight loss because it is going to be a lifetime thing.  I am going to have to work at it the REST of my life.   I have fully accepted this now, finally! 

Me walking home last week

     NEW GOALS: I would like to lose 40 lbs by the time I fly "home" (NC) in December.  I get out of school December 16 and I don't return to until Jan. 9.  I am going to be in NC for 1 week (due to work reasons) I am looking to fly out on the 16th and coming back on the 23.  Once I purchase my ticket I will have a better idea. 
I wasn't going to tell anyone about this goal, I was just going to do it; however I know myself and I know what drives me (now).  I NEED to talk about about, I NEED to prove it, I need to see the number on the scale.  I have told one of my friends here and she is SUPER supportive.  We go to school together and she said she would help if she could.  We go to school downtown and she works in Chinatown so everyday after school we walk to her work which is .8 of a mile.  Then I catch the max and get off before mine (Gateway Transit Center) and walk the rest the way home, I just googlemaped it and it is 1.1 miles. Heck yeah!!  I figured any extra walking would help.

I was going out last weekend, the most recent picture I have right now

   
 There is a Fred Meyer across the street from Gateway Transit center, so when I am walking home I stop by and get some groceries when I need them.  Well, Thursday, I stopped in there to purchase a scale, I got one that was put out by WW.  I figured it was worth a little extra money to get a nice one since this was how I was going to track my success.  I got home and opened it and and decided I couldn't wait I had to see how much I weighed.  not thinking clearly I used it on my carpet.  I stepped on it 10 different times and knew the number that I was seeing was NOT correct so I called my dad.  After talking to him I put it in my bathroom (on tile, duh haha) and I stepped on it 3 times and had the same reading, way more accurate.  then I went to bed and passed out.  Now the whole idea behind WW is being consistent when weighing in.  When I woke up I went pee and was about to hop in the shower and I decided that I usually shower about the same time every night before work so I stepped on the scale again and weighed myself.  I noted where the scale sits and the that is was about 815 PM.  I am going to use Thursday nights before work as my weigh in day.  I have to work every Thursday so this should be pretty consistent. 
     I going to try and update this blog every weekend with hopefully successful news about Thursday weigh-ins.  I am going to start my count over with my weight loss but when I reach my 40 lbs goal in December I will have lost 100 lbs.  Hell to the yeah on that.
Here is the data: Current weight 231.4 lbs once I lose 40 lbs I will be 191.4!!!  Multiple goals will be reach when this happens!!  I am looking forward to this new challenge.  So here I go....

Surpirse by size....

Yesterday I was feeling down in the dumps and I did not make healthy eating choices.  I was feeling sad and depressed, not motivated to do much of anything even though it was actually beautiful outside.  Well, this morning when I woke up, I had kind of the same sad, mopey feeling so I laid around for a little while and still feeling guilty for the food choices from yesterday.  I decided I needed to cheer myself up so I walked downtown and jumped a max to go to the mall so I could go buy some jeans from Old Navy, they were having a sale.  I walked in the mall and started going towards Old Navy when this store called DEB caught my eye.  I went in and they all sizes so I looked around and grabbed a few pairs of pants size 20 and one size 18 just to see.  I got in the dressing room and the 20's were too big, YAY!!!  Then I tried on the 18 and they were a comfy fit.  I decided to try a 16 on just for shits and giggles.  Well the damn things fit, now this style was a little too tight for my taste so I put them all back and started for Old Navy again.  Then Lane Bryant caught my eye.  I went and there and talked with one of the very knowledgeable associates and she helped me find jeans, shirts, and bras to try on.  Well, I found this really beautiful blue button down shirt that I just loved.  Then I was trying on all these jeans and I found my size.  I am super happy to report I am now in a size 16 average jeans!!!  They fit AMAZINGLY nice.



This was at the store!

  I love the dark wash, but the pair they had in dark wash was too short.  I ended up going out to another Lane Bryant to get a lighter color.  I hope that maybe I can order a dark pair but you know even the lighter pair looks damn good.  I ended up spoiling myself and I bought a brand new pair of jeans, 2 shirts, 2 bras, and 2 camis. 



Size 16 jeans Go Me!!!

 I got a purple button down like the one in the above picture.  I got a black one also like the one in the below picture.  I have not wanted to spend a lot of money on buying new clothes because I want to keep losing, but my thinking is, if I have clothes that actually fit and I am feeling good about myself then I should be able to snap myself out of this rut and get back on track with losing more weight.

 Everyday is struggle and it is just getting harder the more weight I still need to lose.  I will do it though. I am looking at this purchase today as an investment to losing more weight because as I am losing I will notice these clothes, that fit just right (they show my nice curvy body)



I have to show my booty!!!

  getting looser and that will be awesome.  Plus, I was able to wear my "big" clothes for quite awhile.  One more little bonus is that Tim (one of my roommates) said to me when I was telling how excited I was about buying clothes smaller than what I was use too, he said he could tell I have lost some weight and that I look good.  That is just being here in Portland!  YAY GO ME!! 

Clothes....

The other day I was walking around town and thought maybe I should try on some new clothes.  I haven't purchased "new" clothes since I started losing all this weight.  Now, it could go one of two ways: 1: get really happy because maybe I went down another size since last time I tried on clothes or the worst side, the side I don't want 2: Get really depressed because, since I have been gaining some weight since being in Portland I may have maintain the same size or went back up.  Knowing these are all options that could be, I stayed positive and went out anyway and tried on some clothes.  The last time I purchased a new shirt was in September.  My posting "buying a shirt" posted September 26, 2010.  That was for orientation at Fred Meyer in Alaska.  I didn't try on pants that day, but I will have you know I have that shirt still and now it is too big for me.  It "hangs" on me and I just don't really wear it anymore. 
I went into Ross, they were having a clearance sale and I am on a very tight budget.  I look through the clothes and found one pair of jeans and one shirt that I actually liked.  The shirt was a XL which is most cases equals to a size 18 and the jeans was a size 20.  I looked at the 18's but could not even find a pair I liked.  So I only tried these on and to my surprise, I thought they fit well.  The jeans were loose so I am hoping that next time I will find an 18 and they maybe loose.  I stood in front of the mirror for awhile, thinking to myself, WOW I have come a long way.  It would a shame to not keep going at this point.  I have lost (as of last WW weigh in) 62 LBS!!  I was only 28 LBS from one of my main goals.  I am trying to get it back together.  Standing there seeing how I looked in that outfit, opened my eyes, YES I CAN DO THIS, YES I WILL DO THIS!!!  This is the outfit that I thought looked pretty good...

I talked myself out of buying this outfit.  For a few reasons actually.  1: the entire outfit was roughly $28.00, I didn't need to spend that much on clothes 2: I don't want to buy another pair of pants in the 20's, I WANT to wait until I hit the teens again.  I don't go out too often, but when I do, it would be nice to have clothes that actually fit and that I feel amazing in.  I am off work this weekend so I may check out some thrift stores, but we will see. 

Confession time....

Here it goes, my weight loss has not been so much of a loss here lately!!  The past few weeks going to meetings I have continually gained weight.  I was having a lot of trouble in school for a bit and sleeping and just all around depressed.  Luckily for me I have snapped myself out of it and now back on the right track.  I am sad to admit that I am no longer attending meeting due to not able to afford them.  So my plan of attack for this bummer event is to buy a "nice" scale, you know the ones, who only tell you good news haha!!  No but seriously, I am going to buy a nice scale and use this blog still as my support.  I am going to weigh myself once a week about the same time and wearing the same weight of clothes, just like I was doing at weight watchers.  I am very upset about not able to go to the meetings but that's life, sometimes you just can't afford things you want :) so you make the best of out what you got.  So now my "meeting" support is going to be your guys, my readers.  I am going to turn to you and work hard and try to get this weight off.  I have fully accepted the fact that I will not be hitting my main goal of being under 200 by my birthday.  I hope to buy a scale here in the next week so I can weigh myself and go from there and at that point I will reevaluate my goals and timeline.  I hope I will still inspire as well encourage others along the rest of my journey. 
So let me just say how hard it is to lose weight while baking some really amazing things in school.  I have to try everything and damn it taste really good, even the things I don't much care for.  My next term will be starting soon and I will actually be sitting in a class, English and Math, instead of baking so that may help me with getting a jump start on my lose.  I can fully focus!! 

Weigh In

I am trying to think of a catchy title for my Thursday weigh ins.  Any suggestions?  I am pretty stocked about this week because I got the job I was trying to get and it is going to be third shift so that means I can keep going to Thursday meetings.  YAY!!

  This morning I decided I was going to walk to school like I did before I got my bus pass.  I have noticed since getting my pass I don't walk as far in a day as I use to.  I am getting right about 5-6 miles in a day.  I would like to up that a little.  These miles are not all done at the same time.  I walk about 1 to 2 miles in the morning and then after school I do  the rest.  I do a lot of walking around near the school in the mornings since I started taking the bus.  After today, when I walked to school I felt so much better throughout my day.  Once I start my job I will not be able to walk to school.  I will have to take The Max.  After school today I walked to my meeting and stripped down a little (my uniform is heavy material).  I stepped on that scale and I had lost 2.2 LBS this week.  I am super excited about that!!!  I may just be back on track here.  I hope to keep that up.  I think is time for a weight update.  My weight today was 227!!!  Since leaving good ol' NC I have lost 62 LBS.  That is pretty awesome if you ask me!!!  Some may think, gosh April 227 is still a lot, but you know what it is great for me right now.

 Until next week anyway. Now want to see just how excited I am about this?  My second big goal was to be less than 200 lbs by my birthday which is mid May.  Here is it late January and I only have 28 LBS to go to hit this goal!!  Right about 4 months.   4 months to lose 28 lbs, that is doable!!  I am really excited. 

Weigh In

I weighed in on Thursday just got a little slack blogging about it.  I had to do some studying and didn't get to hop on here.  Well, Thursday I had a meeting with Fred Meyer about working out my transfer.  To make a very long story short, SCREW THEM!!!!!!  So after I left a very disappointing meeting I hopped on the Max to head to my meeting and I got on the wrong train.  I got on the wrong side and went about 3 stops before I realized it.  I was pissed about the meeting that I didn't even pay attention.  Once I realized, I got off and then went to the correct side and waited for the next train to go back into town.  My meeting starts at 1215 and it was 1225 by this point.  I wanted to make sure I could at least get there to weigh in if nothing else.  Well I finally got there it was 1240.  I had missed all but the last 5 mins of the meeting.  I need the meetings so I was disappointed.  Luckily the leader saw me and asked how I was and then briefly filled me in real quick so that was cool.  Since I go after school I am in full uniform and bags so I have to strip down a lot before I step on the scale.  Well, when I got on I was down .2 I know that is not a lot but I was really happy with that because I am still trying to get off some of the weight I gained during the holidays.  I didn't really eat that great this week.  I have been stressing over a job and now that I have finally had a face to face with Freddies and know that they are a complete waste of my time I can fully concentrate on searching elsewhere.  After my meeting I did go apply to DoubleTree Hotel and had a preliminary interview.  I walked home and I was home maybe 30 mins before the hotel called and wanted to come in for an interview on Friday.  I did go and there are details about that in my other blog http://bugsnewjourney.blogspot.com/ .
So I hope I can do better this week with my weight loss.

Today's a new day....

After school today I finally got back to a weight watcher meeting.  I am so happy about that, I think that is what I have been missing the past 2 weeks. Well, in my Merry gain some weight Christmas post I had weighed myself on my sister's scale and had gained 7.2 LBS which made my weight 236 LBS.  Today when I weighed in on official WW scale my weight was 229.4 LBS.  which would be a loss of 6.6 LBS.  However since I did not weigh in with WW my weight tracker today shows I gained 0.6 LBS.  I am SO HAPPY about that because in my head I did actually lose that 6.6 LBS.  Now I am getting back on track and I am going to attend these meetings on Thursdays as long as I can.  Today's meeting was all about getting back on track and today's a new day.  First week in the new year they are absolutely right.  New Year, New You!!  I still haven't set my lifetime goal but  today I set some mini goals with WW.  My new mini goal is to hit is  20%.  Now that will be 20% of my original weight.  I chuckled when she talk to me about that because I have passed my 15% which was 42 LBS.  My 20% will be 56 LBS. I am really close to that with WW.  My updated totals have changes since the yo yo in my weight the past 2 weeks.  With WW: 51.0 LBS Since leaving NC (which was July 2010): 59.6 LBS.  GO ME!!!
Now let me tell ya about living in Portland and losing weight!!  I have to walk everywhere!!!  If I need groceries, I have to walk 2 miles one way to get them not to mention whatever I buy I have to carry home.  To go to school, I have to walk 1.6 miles one way, not to mention all the shit I have to carry there for school such as books and tool kits.  If I want to be social and see people, I have to walk at least 1 mile to get to downtown. Sight seeing, yup you guessed it I am walking.  Don't get me wrong I am not complaining here because it is great exercise and I don't even realize it most the time because I have to walk to go or do anything.  Granted what I do is limited now because this city is HUGE!!!!   The other day I wanted to venture out and find a Fred Meyer because I needed some nonfood items.  I looked it up online and driving directions said 1.6 miles and walking directions said 2.3 miles.  I was lucky enough to get a pedometer for Christmas and this thing is kick ass it tells you miles, steps and aerobic steps.  So this little trusty device keeps me posted on how far I am walking.  Earlier that day I walked to school and walked a little around town and then home. Then I wanted to venture out so I headed out and got my stuff and came back home.  When I get home and get to my room I look at the pedometer and that day I had walked 14.52 miles.  I have 2 blisters on my right foot to prove it.  It was a good day walking that is for sure.  Just walking to and from school I get a minimum of about 5 or so miles round trip.  Yesterday I broke down and purchased a public transportation pass which was high holy pricey!!  Today I walked to the bus stop which was about 2 blocks or so and then the bus drops me about 4 or so blocks from the school.  I did walk to weight watcher and then I walked home.  It was nice today, no rain, no ice so I am going to try to still walk home after school.  Once I get working again this little plan I have may change but until then this will work.  So doing that today I still walked 4.83 miles.  Still a good day of walking.  Now I just need to keep a check on my food intake and should back on track with my multi pound shedding in no time :) . 

Meetings...

Well the New Year has started so it is time to get back on track.  I looked for meetings close to me and I am not having much luck.  There are 5 locations within 2 mins of me which is awesome, but most of them are at 1215 in the afternoon.  There is one location that is just a little further out that has a few during the week that start in the evening hours and in early morning.  Since my classes are starting a 7 AM, I will be unable to attend any early meetings.  I hope I can get this worked out soon.  I need to go back and be accountable. 

Merry Gain some weight Christmas!!!

My parents came to Alaska to visit for the holidays and I was super excited to see them.  We (well mostly them) have cook and I have been eating some really amazing food.  I haven't been able to go to ww for weigh in b/c my meetings are on Saturdays and due to the holidays my meetings are cancelled.  I was going to try to go last Tuesday, but I was working and tonight I am flying out to Portland.  So I am trying to weigh myself on my sis scale.  Gosh I hope that scale is wrong.  I have gained 7.2 LBS!!!  OH SHIT!!!! I think all 7.2 LBS went to my face.  I can see it in pics, my double chin, damn it!!  Oh well, I enjoyed everything I ate.  Let me just say Christmas dinner was flippin AMAZING and apparently I ate way too much.  I will get back on track.  I am searching for a WW meeting close to where I live so we will see.